the_elegiac_narcissist

This time I am afraid it might actually be the end that I have avoided. But.. Why are you afraid? When she doesn't care? I don't know. I am afraid. Of losing her and her memories. Going back to being strangers again. Because you like her? No. I don't think it's so. It's something much more than that. Not a crush. Not a lover or a bond. It's love, yes. But— a love so pure it remains untouched by t…

I cannot make you understand what it is that I feel when I look at you. It's not love, no. Neither the curse of a crush. It is far more devastating and lonely than the likes of those others. It's longing. A longing for you to see me as somebody worth stopping at halt. Not because you see her as a chess piece or cuz she is talented, But.. to want to get to know her soul for the fact that you are u…